it's mostly our choice of dificult life

This post is different, because it is more of confession other than being a post! I hereby admit that I chose to live life in the difficult and hard way. Not only that we also complain about it as if we were forced to live it in this manner. The truth is that we CHOSE this life! We chose that simply because we thought that if life can be meaningless we are trying to hide this fact from ourselves. Fake labyrinthes that we make are just to make us feel better our beings!

Life is mostly useless and we are just trying to find a cause to continue living. It's always hard to take decisions! It's not about right and wrong, or even comfort zone! It's all about that we fear others' judgment more that we fear life itself

I want to elaborate more, but simply the message of fear is so strong that it gets you into the bones! Fear of rejection, fear of success, fear of secrets, fear of love, fear of life!!!

Insomnia

It’s 03:12 o’clock in the morning on Wednesday the 5th of November, 2014; I simply can’t sleep!

Mixed ideas of reason, happiness, sadness, why, how, what, life purpose, death time, marriage and all dilemmas come to my mind with no certain answer or good way to figure it out! I am head to toe in debt, seen as a hugely successful person with lots of nerve… I am now thinking that this is a good introduction to write a short story or even a novel… for the first time in a while I just feel like laughing for no good reason. The only thing that I can think of now is this movie adaptation and how Nicolas Cage was talking to himself all the time.

Mind-tilt status:

I tend to say this word all the time. Not knowing if it’s a truly a word or just a make-up expression that I use. Anyway I say it to express an idea that runs in circles in your mind and refuses to fade away, not only that but it also eliminates all other thoughts from your mind and prevent it from working properly! I guess that insomnia and mild-tilt are either cousins or best friends because they always come together.

Missing the people that don’t care:

Playing hard to get is so easy but we tend not to do it! It’s time to completely remove these memories, hope and admiration for those who decided not to care about you anymore. If we can’t do it at least put them a side and ignore them like what Mr. Nash did in the movie: A beautiful Mind.

Screaming:

There is two screams that I never forget in the history of Cinema: one is Al Pacino’s in The Godfather III after his daughter’s death and the other is in a mid-budget movie called Sleeping Beauty when she found out that she was almost dead and the guy who was next to her committed suicide. They keep hunting my mind especially when I am depressed or in bad mood! Listening to them shall partially relief me as it’s mostly associated with a cry of tears for no reason!

Self-pity:

It’s nothing else’s’ match! It gets to you bones. It destroys your morals… keep away from it! Seriously it’s a self-destruction tool!

Winner or losers?!

It has always been an epic question! Are you a winner or not? That even they say in the psychological level, you have to convince yourself that your are a winner or else eventually you will lose! May be it's true! May be it's not! May be they don't know... may be you know!!!

YES!!!! MAY BE YOU KNOW!!!

It all comes down to definitions! Mere definitions... What does the word winner or successful mean to you?! Does it make sense or not! Happiness is it part of being a winner/successful? Do you have a goal? Are you pleaser? Why are you doing what you do now?!

Since you are reading this... then may be we have to figure out together a win-win situation instead of depending on other people's thoughts on the word definition...

I would say invest in yourself toward the direction of eventually doing what makes you happy... the losers are those who have many regrets and less happy moments... at least that's what i think...

No winners nor losers are still among us... winners and/or losers are either beasts or gods as they can leave alone as Aristotle say! But for sure we are either happy or unhappy that for sure.

Money Vs. Career

Whenever I read a book like for anyone working in the field of human development they just keep pushing you towards pursing you dream job regards of the consequences! Not only that, but their "guarantee" your success! Like "Stephen Covey" in almost all of his books. This derives us to a point what happens if he was wrong! If you work in sales, like myself, you would know how hard it's to give commitment because once you do it, you have your integrity on the line! But, for his he puts the carrot of success in front of you without even knowing you!!!! Maybe this why these books are always best seller yet least impact!

So it's time to decide what decision you shall take in life! Should you purse your dream careen! which I dare you, I double dare you that you know what it's!  Or, just continue whatever you are doing now~

Being on payroll really helps to make a decision especially with many of our daily life commitments and world economy inflation!

If you are reading this then you've already stepped into the grey area of doubt! Share your opinion and lets make a bowl of #doubtedsanity