Insomnia

It’s 03:12 o’clock in the morning on Wednesday the 5th of November, 2014; I simply can’t sleep!

Mixed ideas of reason, happiness, sadness, why, how, what, life purpose, death time, marriage and all dilemmas come to my mind with no certain answer or good way to figure it out! I am head to toe in debt, seen as a hugely successful person with lots of nerve… I am now thinking that this is a good introduction to write a short story or even a novel… for the first time in a while I just feel like laughing for no good reason. The only thing that I can think of now is this movie adaptation and how Nicolas Cage was talking to himself all the time.

Mind-tilt status:

I tend to say this word all the time. Not knowing if it’s a truly a word or just a make-up expression that I use. Anyway I say it to express an idea that runs in circles in your mind and refuses to fade away, not only that but it also eliminates all other thoughts from your mind and prevent it from working properly! I guess that insomnia and mild-tilt are either cousins or best friends because they always come together.

Missing the people that don’t care:

Playing hard to get is so easy but we tend not to do it! It’s time to completely remove these memories, hope and admiration for those who decided not to care about you anymore. If we can’t do it at least put them a side and ignore them like what Mr. Nash did in the movie: A beautiful Mind.

Screaming:

There is two screams that I never forget in the history of Cinema: one is Al Pacino’s in The Godfather III after his daughter’s death and the other is in a mid-budget movie called Sleeping Beauty when she found out that she was almost dead and the guy who was next to her committed suicide. They keep hunting my mind especially when I am depressed or in bad mood! Listening to them shall partially relief me as it’s mostly associated with a cry of tears for no reason!

Self-pity:

It’s nothing else’s’ match! It gets to you bones. It destroys your morals… keep away from it! Seriously it’s a self-destruction tool!